My emotions arrive in waves

Months go by feeling only subtle waves
months go by feeling times of empowerment
then suddenly from the past comes echoes
to touch again and hear once more
to share events and walks and breakfast and life

Tonight is one of those nights
creeping in so slowly and so nonchalant
tonight is one of those nights when I feel so alone
and helpless in this universe of aloneness
filled with no joy but only sadness

Tonight arrived so gently
till the emotions began to swell
bringing memories missed moments
thinking of how much is missed

Tonight arrived so suddenly
tonight is one of those nights
when the tide filled my eyes
and let my mind wander

Tonight is one of those nights
when I wish I were someplace else
and wonder why I am here at all
tonight as my mother used to say
I am feeling blue